I never do self portraits. To be honest, I'm quite afraid of being in front of the camera. I consider myself an extremely awkward person and that typically seems to reflect on film.
However I thought little these shots reflect everything that's been going on in my crazy, whirlwind head recently.
I'm told it's during your college years when you really start to "become" the person you're meant to be. As of late, I have no idea who this person is. On top of that, I have no idea who the person I want to be even is.
I'm probably the only one that thinks that even makes sense.
I've just been going back and forth between so many subjects and beliefs and values that I'm starting to lose myself in this void. Slipping, slipping, slipping. Who am I? What makes you who you are? Your experiences? Your beliefs? Your actions? The people in which you surround yourself? It seems in life we all all mirrors of each other, reflecting pieces of our essential selves and sending them dancing about like a ray of light through a glass prism. I am currently trying to grasp these traits as they float, but I'm afraid I'm losing them.
I'm trying to find them and take hold again.
My name is Meagan. Reading and taking photos make me happier than anything. I'm surrounded by the most wonderful people imaginable. Someday, I want to open a little bookstore like Meg Ryan's in You've Got Mail (with coffee and cakes and photos and the like too). I have a slight obsession with John Keats and Harry Potter. I have a boyfriend named Matt, who makes me feel like I'm home. I listen to a lot of Coconut Records, James Taylor, Iron & Wine, Frank Sinatra, The Decemberists and Regina Spektor. I love to learn. I like large windows and mason jars. I will never, ever judge you. My family is creative and talented and hilarious and wonderful. I had a father named Michael, who taught me how to think and live and see the world in different ways. I'm clumsy and unbelievably socially awkward. I'm a barista at a wonderful coffee shop filled with wonderful people. I've been in love. I'm alone a lot [but not lonely].